Nirvana

I have found my own Nirvana and it's in Nirvana!
I have recently discovered my love for this band and Kurt Cobain, the most beautiful man to have ever walked on this planet. A man who made mistakes, like any other human being, like marrying Courtney Love, in falling into drugs and perhaps killing himself (my own opinion is that Cuntney Love, the psycho bitch, killed him). I wish to one day write music as amazing as Kurt did, the meanings behind some of his songs can be constantly debated. I have the album Nevermind in flesh and blood but the others I must sadly listen to on the Internet and it's definitely not the same. I am upset over the fact that CD's and vinyl are rarely heard of in my generation, I must be an odd casualty. But my mother believes I'm an 'old soul'  I don't believe in those spiritual things like she does.
I have always loved music, I grew up listening to AC/DC, Aerosmith (thanks to mom) and the White Stripes and Nirvana (thanks to Dad) but during my youth *cough cough*  a few years ago, I only heard the song Smells Like Teen Spirit and that was the end of my Nirvana knowledge. My  father would blast it in the car and after that I only heard it a few times.
I then developed my own tastes, starting with Hedley and the All-American rejects in elementary school, then to Green Day, Foxboro Hot Tubs, the Network, the Clash, the Sex Pistols, The Ramones in grade 8 and now I listen to all those bands previously listed from grade 8 in addition to Pansy Division, Falling Girl, the Hollywood Kills, the Pretty Reckless, Lipstick Homicide, Nirvana, Emily's Army, Bikini Kill, Babes in Toyland, David Bowie, Iggy Pop, Murderdolls, 4-Non Blondes, Pinhead Gunpowder, Queen (occasionally), Foo Fighters, and I think that's it, If I think of more I'll do another post but the point is, my love for music has always been present and it's thanks to my parents. I'm sure kids out there who love their music as much as me and it didn't come fromt their parents adoration for it, or the way they were raised. Maybe it's just what they ehard from other people, or it's their rebellious outlet, but either or,  I discovered my passion from the 'rents.
Now I plan on taking my love to a new level and getting electric guitar lessons, I've already been told i sing well and i enjoy it quite allot and now wish to start my own band. I've been writing since i was 8, and started writing lyrics when I was eleven, (I'm 13 now).
But the three most influential bands in my small life who brought on led me on to better things, who rought knowledge and passion to my small brain, who made me think and reflect and dance and laugh (in order) were; Hedley, then Green Day (who opened my eyes to punk and not just the mainstream stuff) and Nirvana (who opened my eyes to grunge and Riot Grrrl).

Thank You for reading
Thanks for being awesome

-From a grrrl who's still looking

Heres some Nirvana for you guys ;) Okay A LOT of Nirvana for you guys, hope you enjoy
 

The Picture, This Picture, My Picture, Her Picture

The picture

Is fat

Ugly

Disgusting

She sits alone and cold

Abandoned

Lost

Appalling

And no one hears her

She is restless

She is monstrous

And no one sees her

Everyone says that she doesn’t exist

But I see her

I can see her

Why don’t they see her?

They say she is not there

That she invisible

A creation in my head

That I’ve turned invincible

But they lie

Oh those liars

Their truths are just fiction

She exists

I know it

I see it

I’m not a fool

I am not crazy

She lives right there

In my mirror  

-Reverenda

PS this poem is not based on the picture and I do not find the girl in the mirror on the phototgraph any of those things this is just a poem on how an anorexic or bulimic girl feels about her reflection in the glass.

Blythe Dolls

Okay so not too long ago a friend from school showed me these awesome dolls on the internet. They're called Blythe Dolls and they are possibly the most beautifully creepy dolls I've ever seen. They have these strings in the back of their heads and when you pull on them it changes their eye color, they have 4 different colors you can change to and their eyes can blink and move directions. You can custmoize them and everything and they are soooo expensive but sooo freaking cool. I so want one but sadly I have no clue where to get one and I have no money to buy them with :) So here are a few pictures I gathered off the good old Google.